FB Post from this morning...
I’m leaving home this morning with a strange feeling of deja vú. Another early morning trip to Dallas for medical procedure...that was the norm in 2016/2017. The great thing about God is that I don’t remember those early early mornings in great detail which is my reason for documenting all of this...I have to practice so deep breathing (and deep prayer) from time to time to help when the anxiety creeps up. Back to the topics I previously said I would discuss...
Earlier this year I went to one of my many doctors and she questioned why I still had my expanders in and how long I was planning to keep them in. The expanders are meant to be temporary implants that are in to keep your skin stretched prior to reconstruction surgery. In early 2018, I was planning to get the type of reconstruction surgery that I wanted (DIEP Flap, https://www.mayoclinic.org/tests-procedures/breast-reconstruction-flap/about/pac-20384937 and I lost my job the week before. There was preparation that went into getting ready for that (physical and mental)...it’s a beast of a surgery and I hear it could last about 15 hours. To say I was disappointed would be a huge understatement. I didn’t sit in the disappointment for too long but I used it as an opportunity to get in an even better place when it was time to complete this surgery at a later date. So back to 2019, me and the expanders are doing just fine...until we weren’t. I look at myself every day but one day I looked and I was thinking that one looks deflated. So of course I go and show Mother and she confirmed what I was seeing. I took a little time but emailed another doctor and they initially said I could come in the next month on this issue due to the doctor’s travel schedule. I was bummed...I was thinking who is supposed to live like this for weeks! Again, didn’t stay there - just said a silent prayer and then they came back and said they had a cancellation for the next day. Went in and discussed my options and it was decided to move forward with the other reconstruction option for now and then when I’m ready I can go the other option. I had no idea that was available and I probably would have gone this route sooner...so here we are. Also! I’m getting the port removed that was implanted to deliver chemo. I think it’s time to part with it at this time and I can trust this doctor that’s doing this surgery to keep the crazy scars to a minimum.
I’m feeling really great this morning. I didn’t sleep the best because I knew I would be getting up early. I’m ready to get this done and move on to NEXT! 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 Game time is 7 AM-ish...nurse says they are heavy on the ish! I’m the first one of the day. Glad I’m getting everyone fresh!
